Monday, November 26, 2012

It's ok.

I'm taking one day at a time. That's what happens when you're in the valley. I'm currently at a coffee shop which is becoming my home away from... 

We're still waiting to hear about Rozzie. It's a 50/50 chance. It was actually called off last week and now it's back on again {drama!!}. A LOT has to happen tomorrow for us to potentially close on Thurs/Fri. Either way, we're giddy just thinking we will finally KNOW one way or another by the end of the week. It makes me feel for those who are truly homeless. 

One of the hardest things about not having a place to call home is that I can't decorate. My heart hurts a little when I see others bringing in their Christmas trees or baking delicious things in their kitchen. We've joked that we could always put up a Christmas wreath on our storage unit. That's all we've got. I've really been fighting to be thankful for what God has provided for today. My mind easily slips into thoughts of wanting a home, wanting to be out of this hard place, wanting to cook a meal for goodness sake. But I don't want to miss what the Lord has given us ... providing through friend's hospitality, their hugs, and prayers for us. I also don't want to miss this sweet time of the Christmas season. While I might not have the things of Christmas, I can still prepare my heart and this song has been on repeat this afternoon.

Blessings from this past weekend:

1. Ginna pointing to her head saying, "Top of mind." Which means... I'm thinking about you because I know you're always thinking about what's going on...
2. Lucy reminding me that we still have a week til December. So it's ok that I'm not decorating.
3. My parents who let us live with them for 5 days, fed us, and let me cry on their shoulder.
4. Allison giving me a card that says, "It's ok." She wrote that while everything is going to be ok, it's also ok right now

I've been clinging to this verse and even read it to my little chickadees this morning:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. 

and he will make straight your paths -Proverbs 3:5-6

Friday, November 16, 2012

Current state of affairs

 Life has been hard lately. I think sometimes that needs to be broadcasted in the blog world for fear of always presenting an "I have it all together" image. I don't have it all together, not at all.

It's taken a while for me to call it this, but Andrew and I are on a grand adventure. 

Long {really, really long} story short: we thought we were going to close on October 30th with Rozzie. We told our landlord we'd be out Nov 15th. Everything fell through and our mortgage guy said it was a done deal. We were so sad after 4 months of hoping for this home. We moved on and looked for a rental house. Then we got an email from our mortgage guy saying there might be a chance we could get Rozzie. We very cautiously started hoping again. 

So... we still had to be out of our apartment by yesterday. We're set to close on November 30th but nothing is final and we're still waiting to hear if the underwriters approve us for this house {who are underwriters??}. All of our stuff is in a storage unit. We're couch hopping/house sitting for friends for two weeks. I've learned so much these past few days about how hard it is to move and not have a home, or even to know where we'll be living.

The Lord has been so good to us, though! He has provided through the generosity of friends and family. One of my preschool parents handed me an envelope yesterday with coupons from the Entertainment book. She said she picked out some of my favorite restaurants. Our friends are storing some of our stuff at their house: tv, my wedding dress {it still fits!}, and plants.  We stayed with some friends last night and enjoyed a cozy house {not an empty apartment}, a fire, and good chats. I've been learning to accept the generosity of others.

Who knows where we'll be living in two weeks but I know that the Lord, who cares for the little sparrow, loves and cares for us even more so.

Friday, November 2, 2012


So I thought I'd switch things up a bit after I've been a cat for the past 5 Halloweens.

We're snail mail!!

With my friend Elizabeth who is having a bebe! If you look in the corner you can see Andrew's envelope. It lasted for a picture and then he was done. What a trooper. Also, one of our friends told me he was going to bring out the salt! I saw my life flashing before my eyes!!!